Have you ever went to sleep sad, then woke up even sadder? Have you ever looked around & felt like “Man what am I doing wrong”. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t think its depression or even jealousy. I feel like many of us are pushing for something so hard and don’t see the fruits of our labor. Just the other day my friend wrote on Facebook ” I am tired of being poor”. Now her saying this doesn’t mean she has nothing. But it more so means we are just tired of living from paycheck to paycheck.

When you were a kid, how did you think your life would be? Did you go in the right direction? Are you where you want to be? Now I usually surround myself with positive friends heck I can be positive some days as well. But some point you just want to know when will you get to the light at the end of the tunnel. Sadly everyone usually doesn’t want to hear all the “high hope” things. So what do you do?

When I was younger, I use to write letters to God. I would usually say ” Dear God” and just say things a teenager might say. These letters are like a prayer, but I just really write them out.  Since I have become an adult, I have really not put the most effort into my spiritual life. Which is bogus, I know. I do pray & I know that there is a most definitely higher power. Do I put time aside for God, being honest not really. I had to truly understand, in order for God to rain his blessings on me I have to give him time. Cry out to him and literally surrender all of me to God. Not just pray to ask for things.

Don’t get me wrong I am still on the path in my spiritual journey. But it was on pause for a minute until I realized that its time to get ME in order. I know I can’t be the best mom or even an awesome person until  I look within myself to get me back. I decided to share my letter I wrote to God with you all:

Dear God, 

I know its been a while hearing from me. I need help!!!! I feel so lost. I look at what I am not doing & It’s no excuse to why it has taken me so long to have a talk with you but I am here now. I first what to say thank you for being the person that you are. I thank you for giving me some strength to continue to keep a smile on my face. God, I come to you as humble as I know how. God my spirit is weak, and I feel broken. I really want to be better Lord, mold me and make me better. Dear God, fix my mind and my thoughts. Help me understand that in order my fruits (blessings) to ripe and multiply, I have to have a great mind.  You know all of my wants and needs dear God. Dear Lord, remove all of the things that are not in your will. Whatever that does not make you happy, remove it from my life.  Help me to continue to look forward and not back, keep my eyes set on you, God. Dear God, I thank you for my job, I may complain but I and very appreciative with what I have. Place your hand on my finances dear God.  Help me be more appreciative. I thank you for my car, thankful for letting it get me from point A to Z.  Help me see the good in everything I have dear Lord.

In Jesus name, Amen 

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